In July

Now it is July and more has happened. I have severed my relationship from the past. It had hung around a long time and I was not wanting it to continue. I feel the need to work on my relationship with my son and take care of myself.
I did not go about it all that well. Like so many times in my past I was pushed into action. I received a message at 3am of all times asking me what was going on. I decided not to react in my usual knee jerk way but rather to consider what I wanted and reply in that way. I did, it was not easy, nor pleasant as i still feel this person is very special and did not ever deserve the rough treatment she received from me.
So I have tried to move on. Not sure where. Not sure how. Some progress it happening. I feel a little more in control of what I am doing.

I spent last week at my eldest daughters place. She has 2 kids who are lively and active and who I enjoy being around. Though the quiet nights there I did enjoy!
My son came with me, we both got a bit sick and that was a shame. It was at this time that my daughter said I should speak to my son about his sexuality. I had know he is gay for some time and it was good to take him aside and say that it was ok to be who he is, that I wanted him to be happy and to know who he is and that I accepted that, he is my son and I love him.

I sensed a degree of relief from him and he wanted to talk about stuff. That was ok only this week he informs me his friend and he are now just good friends.

Our kids are our kids no matter what they do and no matter who they are...we must be there for them.
I am tired at present. I do not feel as though I have had a holiday. Its all been so busy.
But its back to work next week and I'm off to the snow fora few days with some students. I expect it will be cold, and long and even more tiring. Hopefully I will feel like talking about next week.