My First ET

I took some days thinking about what I wanted to say in this space. Being new to blogging it is a bit of a challenge to set out on a path that is new. You want to think that what you say may be of some significance.

It seems to me that one purpose of this would be to use it to talk about myself and I don't mean the sort of stuff that is'' oh look at me I am the best''. Rather I see it as a site to say what I might be feeling, how I am emotionally, what experiences I have had on any one day and try and reflect upon what has happened and more importantly who I am.

There will be times , a bit like now where it will all come out in a garbled mess. But that I think is within the bounds of the writer in a blog to work at getting it out, writing it down, playing with the words and experimenting with how best to say what is on your mind.

For those who might read this I think some background might be in order. After all it is better to know who the writer is than to speculate as to whether or not he is an axe murderer or some hopeless emotionally scared and socially crippled individual.

I am a man. I am in my 50's. I have been married and divorced for 8 years. I have 6 children.I work in a school. I love my job. I never tire of finding new and exciting things to do. In some ways it is sad that my working life has dominated my '' real '' life.

I say this as I have discovered in recent times my inability to conduct a meaningful relationship with another woman. I have been in a new relationship with a new partner for 5 years and recently it became clear that it was not working out for either of us. I think some of my ET's will be about the processes of relationship and how I now feel. My great fear is that I may have stymied my chances of ever getting back into a relationship. But I can say more about this at a later date.

I would also like to use this space to discuss philosophy. My version of it.

I think men's issues are important and there should be more space and time given to discuss these. What a man feels is important, that a man gets to say what he feels, in some way that he feels safe about is crucial to him being a man. Not all men get the opportunity, many men refuse to acknowledge that there are any issues to address and most men are too afraid to say what hurts them. We live in a society that has so brain washed men in believing and behaving in a particular way that they are never game to venture away from the safety of ignorance and denial.

I think the nature of religion in the world is important. I fear for future generations who are and who will be made brain dead by the severe right wing views of religion being sprouted around the world. What saddens we most is that so called christian churches want to tell us what to do in such ways that they cling to spurious biblical references in order to do so. I am not an overly religious person but I believe I am spiritual being more than a religious being.

So this seems a good staring point. I can diverge if I want. I can labour a point if I want.
Though i may rant and rave, I do want to look back a know I did have something to say.